Posted in Poetry

Tears in the Rain

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Tears in the Rain
© 2017 LC

Calming is the rain.
POURING from the gray sky. Like
all the tears I’ve cried.

 

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Posted in Poetry

Out of the Shadows

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Out of the Shadows.

Lynne Cole. © 2016

I’m tired of living my life–
in these dark shadows you cast.
I’m not the person you wish I’d be.
You hold on ever so tightly to the past.
I’m forever and with no regrets me.

You wallow in self-pity–
bathing in layers of disdain.
Ideals you’ve become a slave to.
Your family unit you try so hard to contain.
Keeping secrets that threaten to break you.

Your actions towards others–
like you don’t even care.
This isn’t how families act.
Feeling attacked. Not fighting fair.
Walking on shards of glass.

No longer will I walk around cutting my feet.
Getting to know me is a two-way street.
I am your daughter only through DNA–
In no way are we the same.

I’m not going to live my life in your shadow–
the past is gone, and tomorrow is new.
Be proactive, not hollow–
Only talking can heal the wounds of the past like glue.

Posted in Daily Prompt, Poetry

My Guardian Angel

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My Guardian Angel
©2016 LC

The stars shining bright–
I wish I could pull them all down.
To see you, again.
The heavens rest peacefully
atop the clouds–
with you gazing down
from the moon.
You whisper to me
in my dreams as
tears roll down my cheeks
“Don’t you dare be sad!
I traded the pain for a halo
and some angel wings!”

Dreams- Daily Prompt

Posted in Poetry

Bullies

Bullies.

L.C. ©  2016

They hurt and leave scars

in places no one can see.

They toy with emotions

such is the way.. with a bully.

They think they are superior

picking on those who are small.

By making their victims feel inferior–

Because they don’t know how to stand tall.

The damage caused by words–

Brings a veil of anxiety.

Bullies think they rule the “herd,”

and with their words bring misery.

Hatred is easily wrought over nothing.

Words are like sharp-edged knives until one day actions form.

Bystanders easily dismiss a person’s suffering.

The bully becomes the victim– which is the norm.

How different the world would be

if we could all stand together– as friends.

Teaching children to be gutsy–

so bullying can come to an end.

Posted in Loss, Poetry

Reminders of You

Reminders of You.
© 2016 LC

Perhaps it was fate,
having you as my father.
Or maybe twas luck.
An Eagle Navy Tattoo. Oldies.
Your Old Dodge and jean jacket
remind me of you.

I could hear your heartbeat.
I knew you weren’t long for
this world. A wraith.
caught between this world–
and the one after.
Suffering.

I tried to hold on
so tight. But you slipped
from my grasp and were carried away.
My love not strong enough
to keep you.
The selfishness I felt then
sicking my belly.

The pain consumed you.
Twisted you up. However,
like a good solider you never let
me see your pain. You stood strong.
Now you suffer no more.
Eternally you rest.

Today I sing your songs.
I wear your old jean jacket.
I am happy you were my dad.
Because you loved me so much.
And I love you still.

 

Posted in Music

Rainy-Day Mix-Up

My playlist for this cold, rainy day!

ONE– Rod Stewart- Have You Ever Seen The Rain?

Someone told me long ago There’s a calm before the storm,
I know; It’s been comin’ for some time.
When it’s over, so they say, It’ll rain a sunny day,
I know; Shinin’ down like water.

I want to know, Have you ever seen the rain?
I want to know, Have you ever seen the rain
Comin’ down on a sunny day?

TWO– 3 AM- Matchbox 20

She said it’s cold outside and she hands me my raincoat
She’s always worried about things like that
She said it’s all gonna end and it might as well be my fault
And she only sleeps when it’s raining
And she screams and her voice is strained
And

[Chorus:]
She says baby
It’s 3 am I must be lonely
When she says baby
Well I can’t help but be scared of it all sometimes
The rain’s gonna wash away I believe it

THREE– Bill Withers- Ain’t No Sunshine

Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone
It’s not warm when she’s away
Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone
And she’s always gone too long
Anytime she goes away
Wonder this time where she’s gone
Wonder if she’s gone to stay
Ain’t no sunshine when she’s gone
And this house just ain’t no home
Anytime she goes away

FOUR– Jars of Clay- Flood

Rain, rain on my face
It hasn’t stopped raining for days
My world is a flood
Slowly I become one with the mud

[Chorus:]

But if I can’t swim after forty days
and my mind is crushed by the thrashing waves
Lift me up so high that I cannot fall
Lift me up
Lift me up – when I’m falling
Lift me up – I’m weak and I’m dying
Lift me up – I need you to hold me
Lift me up – Keep me from drowning again

FIVE– Missy Elliott- I Can’t Stand The Rain

Beep beep, who got the keys to the Jeep? V-r-rrrrrrrooooom!
(uh-huh) I’m drivin to the beach
Top down, loud sounds, see my peeps (uhh)
Give them pounds, now look who it be (who it be)
It be me me me and Timothy (me me!)
Look like it’s bout to rain, what a shame (uh-huh)
I got the Armor-All to shine up the stain
Oh Missy, try to maintain
Icky-icky-icky-icky-icky-icky-icky..

[singing] I can’t stand the rain! (uh-huh, uh-huh)
[singing] ‘gainst my window (against my window)
[singing] I can’t stand the rain! (uh-huh, uh-huh)
[singing] ‘gainst my window (against my window)
[singing] I can’t stand the rain! (uh-huh, uh-huh)
[singing] ‘gainst my window (against my window)
[singing] I can’t stand the rain! (uh-huh, uh-huh)
[singing] ‘gainst my window (say what?)

SIX– Phil Collins- I Wish It Would Rain Down

You know I never meant to see you again
But I only passed by as a friend (yeah)
All this time I stayed out of sight
I started wondering why

Now I, oo… now I wish it would rain down, down on me
Ooo… yes I wish it would rain, rain down on me now
Ooo… yes I wish it would rain down, down on me
Ooo… yes I wish it would rain on me

SEVEN- Garbage- I’m Only Happy When It Rains

I’m only happy when it rains
I’m only happy when it’s complicated
And though I know you can’t appreciate it
I’m only happy when it rains

You know I love it when the news is bad
And why it feels so good to feel so sad
I’m only happy when it rains

EIGHT- Sheryl Crow and Kris Krisofferson– Me and Bobby McGee

Busted flat in Baton Rouge, waitin’ for a train
And I’s feelin’ near as faded as my jeans
Bobby thumbed a diesel down, just before it rained
It rode us all the way to New Orleans
I pulled my harpoon out of my dirty red bandanna
I was playin’ soft while Bobby sang the blues, yeah
Windshield wipers slappin’ time, I was holdin’ Bobby’s hand in mine
We sang every song that driver knew

NINE- CCR- Who’ll Stop The Rain?

Long as I remember,
The rain been comin’ down.
Clouds of myst’ry pourin’
Confusion on the ground.
Good men through the ages
Tryin’ to find the sun.
And I wonder,
Still I wonder
Who’ll stop the rain.

TEN- Adele- Set Fire To The Rain

I let it fall, my heart,
And as it fell you rose to claim it
It was dark and I was over
Until you kissed my lips and you saved me
My hands, they’re strong
But my knees were far too weak,
To stand in your arms
Without falling to your feet

ELEVEN- Trapt- Living In The Eye of the Storm

I can’t run, too dangerous to open the door
I can’t hide, there’s nowhere to go anymore
I’ve got nothing to hold on to
I can’t break through living in the eye of the storm

Living in the eye of the storm

I’m watching all of these dark clouds
I’m watching blue skies turn to gray
And the lightening has struck ground
And a million eyes start to rain

TWELVE- Blind Melon- No Rain

All I can say is that my life is pretty plain
I like watchin’ the puddles gather rain
And all I can do is just pour some tea for two
And speak my point of view but it’s not sane, it’s not sane
I just want someone to say to me
I’ll always be there when you wake
You know I’d like to keep my cheeks dry today
So stay with me and I’ll have it made

THIRTEEN- Breaking Benjamin- Rain

Take a photograph,
It’ll be the last,
Not a dollar or a crowd could ever keep me here,

I don’t have a past
I just have a chance,
Not a family or honest plea remains to say,

Rain, rain go away,
Come again another day,
All the world is waiting for the sun.

FOURTEEN- Guns and Roses- November Rain

When I look into your eyes
I can see a love restrained
But darlin’ when I hold you
Don’t you know I feel the same
Nothin’ lasts forever
And we both know hearts can change
And it’s hard to hold a candle
In the cold November rain

FIFTEEN- Live- Lightning Crashes

Oh now feel it, comin’ back again
Like a rollin’, thunder chasing the wind
Forces pullin’ from
The center of the earth again
I can feel it.

Posted in Loss, Poetry, Writing

Regret

Regret.

© LC 2016

All these words I never said,

Are like unwelcome guests–

dancing regrets inside my head.

Dreams we had and trips we took,

the incredible adventures and smiles–

It never mattered how we looked.

You will always be the missing piece,

broken– but still you fit in my heart.

I prayed to God, but it has never ceased.

I remember waking in your arms. .

the sun warm on my face.

I was enchanted by your charm.

When we laughed and loved.

I was your everything.

And you were mine, and it was enough.

Inspired by a television show.

One of the lead characters lost the woman he loves. Nothing is more heartbreaking to watch than seeing him wallow in self-pity, loathing, and regret.

Posted in Poetry

Standing Tall

Standing Tall.
©LC 2016

Every day is a struggle,
internally– it is a fight.
Just to appear “normal,”
It is exhausting– trying to be alright.

Palpitations arise in my chest,
I debate over the mask I will wear–
To be the person they want me to be.
Palms sweaty. I try not to care.

Worry consumes my every thought.
If only things would work out alright.
I cloak myself in the dignity I have left.
Maybe I will sleep tonight.

My stomach nerves are a ball of fire
in public places, I try to contain.
I do my best with relationships–
though they can be difficult to maintain.

I often feel out-of-place–
the words won’t come-I’m being judged.
And though I know I may not belong,
I know I did nothing wrong.

Anxiety is a part of me.
A common issue in society.

Awareness should be raised for all.
Acceptance and understanding helps us Stand TALL.

** I hope this encourages someone else to talk about their battles with anxiety, depression, or other mental illnesses!

Anxiety is something I’ve struggled with for years. It can be hard to talk about a sensitive issue.

If enough awareness is raised on these illnesses, they won’t be perceived in such a negative manner.

Do you struggle with anxiety, depression, or another disorder?

Lynne